#me at work: cant come in im sick
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i cant come into work today boss i have to Realize
#thing#me at work: cant come in im sick#the sickness: a cold for real. but in an even realer way? lovesickness for unidentified reasons#we need to come up with solutions here we need a team of scientists etc
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#bunny rambles#i was “cleared” to go back to work yesterday but she told me i could use the rest of the time also if i wanted/needed#and im using it. but the little corporateanxietybot who lives in my head and tries to make me be a Good Worker[tm] is SCREAMING HER HEAD OFF#cause she thinks my boss/Dad is gonna scream at and hit her for being Lazy#this is a trauma post also um. didnt expect to name her rn but she's screaming and i cant scream back cause she sounds like alarms and those#scare crustywhitedog so i have to calm that one so i don't meltdown#my wife submitted the RTW date for me so like. its okay im actually taking the time and ik this is necessary also bc. it is clearly unwell#that its freaking out because it's gotten a more than a 2 day break for the first time in a year#ik corporateanxietybot has protected me in some ways but. i gotta kill her so bad. maybe H can help me reformat her somehow .....#i also hate her is the thing. she cant hear me rn bc she's just looping in circles alarming but anyway. i hate her. like Me. she's so#capitalismcorebootlicker and i hate that about her and i hate that she exists and i hate that she exists bc my dad raised me to be an#Employee instead of a person 🙃🙃🙃🙃#im not elaborating or explaining any of this. this is a diary entry now#i wish i could click her to kill her like the drones in hardcoded lmao it'd be so much easier. ik she like. lives in the work mode mask as#well which is also HARD bc if im not actively thinking Of work or At work she's nonexistent#but shes so LOUD 🙃🙃 like shut up. we're not gonna explode n die from taking an extra week off you're being dramatic our boss isnt Dad#like he LITERALLY isn't Dad. not even close. he's like the most docile man in the world come on ik they're around the same age and both hve#held authority over u but boss checking in wasnt a trap ur not ab to get caught doing wrong ur fiiiiIIIIIIINE#(also corporateanxietybot is not an adult. she's 15 and terrified but she integrated to my work mask which is the problem cause she makes me#a “phenomenal employee” and also makes me work myself sick when she is given the reigns. little devil on my shoulder except the capitalist#system we live under treats her as a positive thing so she gets positive reinforcement at work which only makes her more anxious 😭 i gotta#talk to H about this next Friday huh. also wow. parts work has made it a lot easier for me to acknowledge these behaviors so i can confront#them easier. weird. strange even. so many parts have gotten names this past month n im realizing also why its been so hard to process stuff#but it also has made me kinder to myself. anyway she turned off (her batteries are low since she's been home for a month too) so im gonna#clean myself up and get some food in me and then get some cleaning done
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"do you like it?" "darling, i love it."
#ts4#ts4 gameplay#sims 4 gameplay#postcard legacy challenge#im gonna pass away#rua's vocabulary is full of pet names and words of adoration#adrien has some for him too. a few in spanish that make rua shiver.#he braided adrien's hair btw 😖 he loves to play with his hair#since adrien started growing his hair out he's caught rua a few times looking up long hairstyle tutorials 😭😭#“my love come sit” he'll pat the couch enthusiastically “let me fix your hair”#and when he's done adrien would complement him and ask him where he learned it#rua would puff out his chest proudly and say “learn it? ive always known this” or “my angel i made it up for you”#and adrien lets him get away with it bc it's cute and harmless#rua's love languages are acts of service and physical touch#he's so sick i cant stand him#YOU SEE HOW THEYRE MATCHING LOWKEY!!!!!!! IM GONNA GO CRAZY#postcard: gen3#queue#i switched a lot of feminine frame hairs to allow for masc frames and many of them worked#save for a bit of clipping around adrien’s back. i think the one he’s wearing now is the worst of it but it’s not too bad to bother me#i still haven’t figured out how to properly convert it in blender so this will have to do#sim: adrien herrera#sim: rua kamealoha
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anyway I've come to realize social media has an affect on how I approach my art and I'm currently mentally working through how I feel about that 🤔
#why do i feel like if someone else does something i cant do it? why do i feel like i have to adjust the things i make for posting?#why do i expect certain quality of work from myself? why do i feel embaressed focusing on my own things?#why compare myself to others at all?#these are all the questions i am facing.#not in like. an overly upset way im fine just my trip gave me a time to Think on things. such as it goes#i dont want things to take away from my own visiob#and i dont want to neglect my friends for the sake of something else#anyway.#im still sick today ajdkfkgkhkhkhkjkj#thank you for coming to my tag ramble XD#the prophet speaks#* hadestown tune playing * where is the man who stayed up till 2 am texting their friend with creative ideas to share
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so very quick and sketchy but i was getting vague designs for all the tldc ladies down in one place
not so sure on gwendolen and gwilanna and i havent looked back at the books for details yet but these were just a quick cool down for the night 🫶
#ragnar art#tldc#the last dragon chronicles#fuck it sure ill main tag#too many characters (seven) fend for yourelves on this one#i um. i might be working on (have conceptualised and planned to death) an animatic#and thus actually had to figure out what people look like#im very faceblind n have aphantasia. so if they're not all on one page idk what they look like and/or if they look similar#read a little bit more of firestar and made myself sick thinking about gwilanna and her baby :(#oh old lady... come hang out with me we can... idk eat mushrooms and kick rocks together#cant wait for my gwilanna blorbo era. MOVE OVER david and tam its about to get uncomfortable in here (my brain) for you two#just Oh my god i get it now. girl id've done worse for grief. she shouldve blown the whole planet up and i'd cheer her on the whole way#<- doesnt remember most of her storyline BUT remembers The Vibes clearly#love a mean old fuck especially if they're a major antagonist. do NOT ask me about my relationship with my parents 🤡 /j#omg i also fixed my tablet's colour settings for the first time since i got it (2....3 years ago??) and wow. i dont have to fuck about#in the colour profile before i post anymore. technology is amazing <3 (i am an idiot)
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Did you man beam Drizzle? If so, why not just pair up Rustle with Cranberry instead? I get for the amazing ship name but I'm curious about the choice /gen
I totally forgot Drizzle's original gender, but also, I really don't want to overthink it. I'm so tired of overthinking it. I wanted CranberryDrizzle funny ship name and it was getting exhausting to plan out where every pairing in several hundred cats would be getting their kits from
Rustle is going to die at some point after having two QR kittens, and Cranberrydrizzle is going to have 2 important litters (Sunstrike and Emberfoot in the first, Fernstripe in the second). I have done an exhausting amount of work (weeks of planning and hours of work at a time, scouring the wiki and facebook screenshots, redrawing tangles, reading through suggestions, writing out full posts of changes and creating new groups with their own histories) untangling broken fragments of family trees and like... I'm tired. No more shuffling. I deserve Funny Ship Name. is this too much to ask
Boy Drizzle is just the easiest answer. I'd like for Drizzle to just be transfem but I was also told to avoid cats being trans just to have kits, which is ALSO frustrating me at this point, I don't like this weight of "perfect representation" that's being put on me when I'M not even perfect representation as a living human queer.
Do I let Drizzle be transfem and "break a rule," or change them to a boy and "lose" a lesbian pairing? It feels gross to me to have fallen into a mindset where I'm treating queer relationships like quotas or rigid rulesets
I feel like if I 'get something wrong' (like forget the gender of a Missing Kit or a side character, or handwave 'where did these kits come from' with 'trans/queen's rights' without considering a real secret surrogate) I'm going to get smacked upside the head and be forced to hyperfocus on one small part of a massive project when I already have a million other things to work on.
So unfortunately the most honest answer I can probably give is that im tired. I'm really tired. Overthinking minor details before making every single tumblr post is draining me. I forgot the missing kit's original author-assigned gender and didn't scroll to the bottom of Onestar's wiki page to check it before posting. I like the ship name. Cranberrysplash somehow gets pregnant twice, but I was told to avoid trans bioparents, yet doing that is making things even harder after I had to do weeks of work to make a good tree in the first place
I'll figure out Drizzlefall's gender when they become relevant in some context
#i dont want cranberryrustle i want cranberrydrizzle#for my own sanity I am probably going to start straightup deleting asks and replies about accidental misgenderings of missing kits#i cannot keep the gender and names of 600+ characters straight 100% of the time#Especially when they were only named in authorial statements#i deserve funny ship name. i just. i deserve funny ship name#do i not bleed enough to deserve funny ship name#i don't think I can work with this ''minimize trans bioparents'' rule. It's done nothing but cause me frustration and make burnout set in#redtail is a man and he gave birth. get over it. im sick of feeling guilty over my own hobby project#for characters like sedge where it's a plot point it will stay but I CANT keep working with it in mind#Hazeltail is unkilled. She is trans. She is taking Mousewhisker's place in ThunderClan so he can go to riverclan#If canon gives mouse kittens then they will be hazeltail's. trans people fuck and have kids. deal with it#and you know what? in a world with countries that will fucking sterilize you if you want to legally transition#maybe it *should* be more normalized.#tw transphobia#btw anon it's clear you're being genuine so im not mad at you#vent a long time coming I think#bone babble
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never goibg to the club again for real this time
#so so tmi in these tags im so sorry#some guy was fully getting his hand inside of me on the dancefloor and at the start#i was like alright#ok#this is what u do i guess#VERY quickly realised i was not enjoying it#tried to pull his hand out multiple times#he would leave it a bit then start up again#i know i could have left idk why i didnt#felt pathetic to say i didn't like it#so i tried to !!!!!#didn't work#at the end he asked if he could come back with me#i apologised and said no#he asked again#i said no again (had already got his number)#asked a third time whilst i was leaving#and he followed us all the way to the chip shop#stood right behind me in there#me and 2 friends left to wait outside#he came outside#we started walking and jumped in an uber#i could have handled that better but now i feel odd#im so asexual JFNFJFJFJJF#have scrubbed every inch of myself in the shower#but there are marks on me from him#lmao#and i cant get the essence of him away from me#im soooooo#sick of this
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Co-worker: yeah I'm sick today :/ I feel so sick
Me, externally: awww nooo I hope you get better soon!!
Me, internally: what the fuck!!!! Why are you here! At work! At a RESTAURANT!!! while you are sick!!!!
#fuck meeee im going to be so mad if ANOTHER coworker who knew they were sick and came to work anyway makes me sick#i thought i could escape constantly getting sick when my brother stopped getting the entire house sick!!! but no!!!#and LOOK before anyone gets mad at me i knwowww people come to work sick because they cant afford to stay home#i am also mad at the system for making people go to work sick!#but also mad at my co-worker#petit talks
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If you knowingly go in public sick/contagious you just really dont give a fuck if immunocompromised people live or die or at the very least dont care if we suffer. Fuck!!
#im so tired of being sick im so tired of ppl coming into the studio like 'i was just sick with something horrible' to my face#then me getting horribly sick days later . sometimes having a job doesnt fuxking feel worth it if i suffer all the time#i get no free time bc most of my freetime is me fighting illness or in the hospital#someone came in said 'have u gotten the new sickness? just had it a day ago it was terrible' and i knew id grt sick and now i have a fever#and have hsd one for days. and cant work again.#and its so embrassing when people are like 'oh youre sick again!?'
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grief will have you saying shit like goddamn and fuck maybe the abuse was worth it
#ive made this post before i just cant find it and it’s all im feeling rn#god i miss my parents so fucking much even though they were the cause of SO MANY of my problems that idk if i’ll ever heal from#but navigating life w this grief and without their support- however little it was- feels like hell#but the abuse felt like hell too.#ive said it before but i was JUST getting to a place where i felt i could stand up for myself and knock down thwir shit a few pegs. or at#least become more resistant to it#i saw a future with them in it for the first time in my LIFE#and it was bc i’d done SO MUCH FUCKING WORK. and now i feel like it was all so fucking useless#it’d be easier if i was still in the phase of anger i was at like 19#but i’d processed that quite a bit and was trying to move on#FUCK. i had made SO much goddamn progress right before my mom got sick#then everything went down the toilet cus i cannot fucking have anything#it’s so unfair. i wish i could at least redo the last 3 years of my life#i would’ve done things so much different but i was so traumatized and still so angry and bitter and trying to preserve myself#ive come to the realization tjat the person i am today did not exist back then and therefore i shouldnt beat myself up bc it literally wasnt#available to me. i couldnt have done anythimg different bc i was in such a state of survival#and truthfully ive grown a lot since then even if im still in the trenches#the timeline of my entire life has been so fucking unfair#and i dont know how to reconcile any of it i dont know how to cope with my worst fears coming true#and i mean worst fears. even the way they passed. spot on to my worst fears#i despised what they did to me but i still didnt see life without them until i was at least 30#it was all so sudden and quick and shocking#yeah they were horrible parents but i was a horrible kid too. maybe i straight up just deserved that shit#and i’d go back to that and seeing a future with them in an instant#over this bullshit#it’s so hard. and then losing all my pets too at the SAME TIME. all my babies#everything that i loved ripped away from me in the span of MONTHS#it’s all too much. l oh fucking l. no wonder im 3 shots deep at fucking 3 pm#it just hurts so bad. so fucking bad.
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#i cant believe how my job deals with me being sick compared to my old jobs#i got sick and they legit just said okay. text us when youre 100% better.#my old job would give us 3 days before they bugged us to come back again#im super sick and the fact im on day 5 in a row unbothered by work calls/texts is insane to me
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eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh
#i just find it like so unfair yknow#im the only one who works in myhouse and full time#but i come home and the house isnt clean and i tidy up and sort everything out and tidy the kitchen anf living room after dinner and put#my sister to bed and yk if there was no one else to do these things id understand but#i have 5 brothers all of whom are adults and they dont lift a finger#its not as if any of them work bec they dont and neither does my dad#and im so so so exhausted yk? bec not everything is my job or responsibility#and i keep blaming other things for me getting sick but yknow what maybe i just dont rest enough#and the other day i was upset bec i'd had a tough day at work and i felt unwell and i cleaned up everything after dinner and my brother#said i didnt have a right to be upset bec i “chose” this. like as if i chose to work full time nd do all the chores for a family of 9#and it just really upsets me bec no one sees an issue with it and im so mad at my mom at rhe same time#constant therapy sessions w her bec shes mad at my dad and wants someone to vent at and then he does the same abt her and my brothers#and im so tired yknow just sososos tired bec she'll complain abt how they dont do anything but then she wont ensure they do either#its just empty complaints whereas she thrust responsibility on me when i was 9 and yet my brothers are 18+ - all but one that is and they#cant even do their own laundry bec she just..... did everything for them all the time but now is mad that they cant do anything.#like yes i know my dad is a failure of a husband and a father i expected that i'll never be a good enough daughter for him and that the onl#thing he has to say about me is that im bringing shame on our family despite everything ive done but come on#im just tired and upset#its hard not to see yourself as a robot or machine when theres little room to be anything else.#and even on a day like today when i dont feel well it never stops and i just keep doing#im sad i want a hug from my gangster bf#oh god i am sorry pls do not perceive me for this#and yk what#thats why i cant stand when people are nice to me bec all i can think of is#i havent done anything to deserve this? i should have to give something in return#or if not#theres something this person must want because why else would they be nice to me when i havent done anything for them#i cannot fathom the concept that someone just wants me because its me#its literally just not possible why would anyone fo that for me
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im still dealing with the consequences of my accident - where i fell down five meters and was almost paralysed meaning i had to get emergency surgery on my spine but i also broke my foot which has enforced my already existing back and posture issues - leading to pain and sometimes debilitating pain. yet my doctor says there is no chance this is recognised as a disability which would mean i get special worker protection which i feel i need because im being guilt-tripped and not believed and probably soon to be fired at both my jobs because i have to call in sick every now and then due to sitting at a desk on the computer literally causing me pain. this is making me suicidal again, despite being on antidepressants. i already had health issues before the accident especially mental health so now im just super hopeless and anxious for the future
edit: i have a decent support net in my life and soon to start therapy so please dont worry about me, i just need to vent my frustration and feelings sometimes! i appreciate everyone reaching it out a lot though!
#personal#im nauseous and dizzy from the strong pain medication im on#and my work superior acts like i chose this? like im calling in sick for funsies?#its not my fault we are understaffed and essentially cant call in sick#i mean its partly my fault for downplaying how bad it is but honestly i wouldnt even have to disclose whats going on with me#it should be hey im not coming in to work because im sick and thats it#instead im like hey i have back issues and cant sit because of pain can you give some of my tasks to others so my shift is shortened?#which i dont have to do at all! im literally offering to work a little despite my sick note! which is not even legal#and he‘s like yeah well its going to be really difficult to find someone to take it over this is really bad timing#like im sorry my lumbar disk has protrused at the wrong time for you? the fuck#my roomie literally had to call an ambulance because i couldnt walk from pain and i was wailing on the floor
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sickening that i so badly want to call off work & have even set it up so that i will have the easiest time doing it. and i dont care about this job. and yet. the horrors persist
#does one not bring habits#its bc its breaking rules and god forbid i break a rule or commitment EVEN THO I WASNT SUPPOSED TO BE ON SCHEDULE TODAY#like god pls why cant u fuck off for one minute and let me like ur average human person call in sick from work huh#literally babe u see ppl straight up no call no show you have been putting ur pussy in to acting sick#yesterday ppl were saying u should ask to go home early! come on#anyways im gonna do it or ill dox myself to let ppl hit me with hammers bc i deserve the day off
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not to be ungrateful but i don't get paid enough at my job lol
#the problem with jobs that people do bc they love the work is that it doesn't pay well and you will be overworked to death#genuinely couldn't quit bc i love the kids too much already but 15 an hour is....not ideal tbh....#how am i supposed to make future plans in these conditions#i cant ask for a raise ive only worked here 3 months but ugh#the only reason i got hired is i finally broke my rule abt the minimum hourly rate i was willing to accept#i applied to the two 14-16 an hour jobs and used the one i already accepted to get this one to gove me 15 instead of 14#but that's still not a lot tbh#need to buy an oven since we havent had a working one since january#and i keep gping ok next time i get paid i will buy an oven#and it hasnt happened yet#and i need.....17k to invest in starting my own business and i will not see a return on that for a very long time 😭#and i have no idea where that money will be coming from lol#fortunately its not that time sensitive except it kind of needs to happen in the next year or two probably but idk#if i dont do what i need to do idk what will happen but i think the issue will become more expensive but also maybe less expensive#but also uglier and make my neighbors mad#but i have no choice but to wait bc i have no money for that lol#anyway#17k is my immediate expense but i also need to come up with the money to eventually buy my parents house somehow#and i dont even make enough to pay the mortgage 😭#fortunately i dont need to do that for a long time but...eventually#anywayssss#how am i supposed to live laugh love in these conditions#i do love working with kids but jts hard work and all my coworkers are petty and hate eachother so its a lot#and i dont make enough money to live fr#im so lucky i live w my parents bc nobody at my job makes enough to live on their own lol#also the sheep that are supposed to be clearing brush got sick and went back to their farm and they're not coming back this year at all#so we need to brush hog it#or contract another farm#im not sure if its even safe w their poop all over the place snd im not getting any communication from the farmers#but it lowkey might be better to get our own sheep but thats so much work i dont want to think abt doing livestock
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it will forever annoy me to no end how many people i encounter on a daily basis who have a cough- not just happen to cough once or twice while im around them, like it's clearly a persistent thing- and just. it doesn't even seem to occur to them to wear a mask. like i get that the General Public(tm) has become pretty lazy about masking, and i think it's a hard sell convincing anyone like that to start masking daily again. but when you're sick?? obviously sick? how does it not come to your mind to wear a mask i genuinely dont get it. how is this not common sense. did we not all live through covid together. whats going on. i feel like im going crazy
#my post#ive had multiple coworkers THIS WEEK with a persistent cough who come in to work anyway and dont mask#we literally keep masks around for anyone to take at my job and not a single person other than me uses them#it genuinely boils my blood that im the one who has to mask around these ppl just to not get sick bc they refuse to for literally no reason#and even then if the sick person isnt wearing a mask; me wearing one can only do so much#it makes me so so angry and so sad how little people care#and i consider myself pretty lazy when it comes to covid stuff!#which i know i should fix but god i cant believe how much worse so many people are at this
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